2008 : I Miss You. - 2009 : Do I like you?

While my new episode of Season 2 of Gossip Girl downloads on itunes - I thought I would take a second to update you on what has been happening in my life since the last post.

hmmmmmmmmmm not much really.

Well, I guess that's it. Wait no - actually there is something that I would like to say..

I miss last year. I miss that last year at this time there was an election going on and I was getting involved. Last year I felt this passion that I had not felt before in my life. I don't know where it came from and it was really an amazing experience. I miss that. I feel like last year was an important year for me because of my growth as a person. Campaigning for Hillary and Obama really changed my life in a way that I didn't realize until it was all gone. If you know me you know that time was an awesome time. That's all I talked about ( and sometimes still do ) I met some amazing people and had some unforgettable experiences. Knocking on all those doors as far as South Dakota talking to voters - hearing their stories - telling them mine...

So what does all this mean? I am trying to figure all of that out. What do I do next? Friends are telling me that I need to work for a campaign or something like that but is that what I really want to do? I feel like I am finally getting settled into a steady career.

I just got back from Upstate NY. I knocked on doors for Scott Murphy who is trying to win Kirsten Gillibrand congressional seat. ( she replaced Hillary in the Senate ) I was among people that were around my age and who obviously shared my passion about trying to make a difference in our country. Have you ever had that experience? Where you are around a group of people that share the same passion and drive for something? It's fucking amazing - and I didn't feel this for the first time until last year during the election.

( just checked my download of Gossip Girl, 10 minutes left )
( gulp of my merlot )

What do I do? When do I do it? More importantly - do I do it?

American Orgasm/Lambert

Seriously, I had to run out of my living room and stop watching American Idol so I could write this:

( Adam Lambert finishes an AMAZING performance and the crowd goes wild )

Paula Abdul: Take it - Take it all in Adam!

My thoughts about that: Oh Honey! I am sure he can TAKE IT - TAKE IT ALL IN.

I am very intrigued about Adam and how this will play out with his sexuality. Will America really care he's gay?

In other American Idol thoughts:

Paula was on some serious shit tonight. As the night went on, her voice became more shaky and her thoughts all crazy and her dancing out of her chair out of control.

I swear she had like 3 ( maybe 4 ) orgasms tonight on the show.

And if Kara says the fucking word - RADIO - one more time , Imma gonna cut someone.
Same goes for Randy calling EVERYONE "Man" and "Dog" After 8 seasons, that shit gets old.

I usually agree with Simon but only because he kind of reminds me of my gay uncle.

My weekend via Video and Beyonce's dress

Well, another weekend has come and gone. And like all the rest of them - they aren't ever long enough.

I think there are 3 things that I would like to share with you about this weekend.

1.
I was visiting a friend in Jersey City saturday and went inside a 99 cent store and look what I found!!!

Beyonce's dress that she wore to the Oscars!





2.
Friday was Audrey's birthday so we went out to celebrate. See the interview below. Yes, I was very drunk and my speech is slurring and it's hard to understand what I am saying at times but whatever.



3.
It wouldn't be a night out with me if I didn't burst into showtunes while walking around the East Village.




Thanks LD,BO for the vids.

shortest blog post ever.

so over this bullshit.

the end.

Tuesday Night - Random Thoughts.

I had a great unexpected night tonight.

I was supposed to go see Hedda Gabler with Mary Louise Parker but she wasn't in the show tonight so I switched my tickets.

This night had a lot of random thoughts for me.... so here I go.. random.


Random #1

I was on the subway home and as much as I would like to have fallen asleep - I couldn't. I was listening ( eavesdropping ) on these two teenage girls.

Girl #1- ( she pulls out a piece of loose leaf paper that she had written on ( remember that? ) ( she starts to mumble something to the other girl and I get frustrated because I can't understand what she is reading and I even consider getting up and going to stand beside her but I figure this might be a bit odd. ) mumble mumble ( and then I hear something she says )
"He takes my heart...my hand.. my life.. he kisses my lips..he holds me.."

Girl #2- ( she looks at her friend with awe ) Wow, you should be a poet!

Girl #1- "I know, right?! Listen to this one! ( she pulls out another piece of paper )

I close my eyes and smile.

Random #2

I emailed my brother today to ask how he was doing. He replied "SOS" I asked him what that meant - he replied- "Same ole shit"

Fast Forward to Happy Hour when I explained this to my friend. Rihanna's "SOS" was playing in the background. Ironic? Maybe? Nah.

Random #3

I had a conversation tonight about - Ego's. Do we ever actually think about what that word really means? Do we sometimes mistake our ego for our insecurities?

Am I a judgmental person? Yes, I think I am. But I hate to be judged. ( hypocrite )What does that mean? I'll get back to you?

Random #4

This recent obsession with Kanye West is strange. Part of it has to do with me working on a project involving him at work. But does this mean that I don't always open my eyes to the things that are already around me and just shut them out without giving them a chance? Does this go back to me being judgmental? Hmm..

Random #4-b

For those of us who live in NYC. Why is it so damn hard for us to make friends here? Why is there this wall between people? And do you ever feel like this City doesn't want you here? That it does everything to make you leave and that you have to fight to stay here?

Random #5

Why does it bother me so much that I am single? Am I really ready for a relationship? Or is it just wanting something that I don't have and when I get it - I won't want it?

Random #6

It really bothers me that I listened to Kelly Clarksons' new cd on vh1 today. ( It isn't out in stores yet but there is a sneak peek - listen here ) This new album was horrible. It feels like she is struggling to find out what her "voice" is and who she is. Why is it a bit comforting to see someone with fame and money having problems finding out who they are?

end scene.

best facebook comment EVER.. and Adam....

I had so much to write about tonight - a weekend without internet, saturday night etc.

I even wanted to write about how these pictures of American Shitshow/Idol contestant Adam Lambert surfaced today. and how my theory proved he was a bottom!





BUT WAIT - The point of this is this -

The best comment I have ever gotten on Facebook.



AND for an extra bonus for tonight - this amazing picture of Adam Lambert in DRAG!

You better WORK!