Tuesday Night - Random Thoughts.

I had a great unexpected night tonight.

I was supposed to go see Hedda Gabler with Mary Louise Parker but she wasn't in the show tonight so I switched my tickets.

This night had a lot of random thoughts for me.... so here I go.. random.


Random #1

I was on the subway home and as much as I would like to have fallen asleep - I couldn't. I was listening ( eavesdropping ) on these two teenage girls.

Girl #1- ( she pulls out a piece of loose leaf paper that she had written on ( remember that? ) ( she starts to mumble something to the other girl and I get frustrated because I can't understand what she is reading and I even consider getting up and going to stand beside her but I figure this might be a bit odd. ) mumble mumble ( and then I hear something she says )
"He takes my heart...my hand.. my life.. he kisses my lips..he holds me.."

Girl #2- ( she looks at her friend with awe ) Wow, you should be a poet!

Girl #1- "I know, right?! Listen to this one! ( she pulls out another piece of paper )

I close my eyes and smile.

Random #2

I emailed my brother today to ask how he was doing. He replied "SOS" I asked him what that meant - he replied- "Same ole shit"

Fast Forward to Happy Hour when I explained this to my friend. Rihanna's "SOS" was playing in the background. Ironic? Maybe? Nah.

Random #3

I had a conversation tonight about - Ego's. Do we ever actually think about what that word really means? Do we sometimes mistake our ego for our insecurities?

Am I a judgmental person? Yes, I think I am. But I hate to be judged. ( hypocrite )What does that mean? I'll get back to you?

Random #4

This recent obsession with Kanye West is strange. Part of it has to do with me working on a project involving him at work. But does this mean that I don't always open my eyes to the things that are already around me and just shut them out without giving them a chance? Does this go back to me being judgmental? Hmm..

Random #4-b

For those of us who live in NYC. Why is it so damn hard for us to make friends here? Why is there this wall between people? And do you ever feel like this City doesn't want you here? That it does everything to make you leave and that you have to fight to stay here?

Random #5

Why does it bother me so much that I am single? Am I really ready for a relationship? Or is it just wanting something that I don't have and when I get it - I won't want it?

Random #6

It really bothers me that I listened to Kelly Clarksons' new cd on vh1 today. ( It isn't out in stores yet but there is a sneak peek - listen here ) This new album was horrible. It feels like she is struggling to find out what her "voice" is and who she is. Why is it a bit comforting to see someone with fame and money having problems finding out who they are?

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