My American Idol?

I'm torn.

I found myself on the edge of my couch tonight watching American Idol.

I also found myself jumping up and clapping ( screaming ) when Kris was announced he would be in the finals.

The top 2 - Adam Lambert and Kris Allen.

Here is my internal struggle - ( Don't laugh, you know I'm dramatic )

Kris Allen - I like his voice. I like the fact he took a Kayne West song and made it sound new. I love that he takes risks. I love that he probably has shopped in Park Plaza Mall in Little Rock, that he knows what Burns Park is and has attended Riverfest. I love that he has cheese dip for life. I also can't wait until his ballads fill my ipod. ( did I mention that I LOVE ballads? ) There is something about his interaction with his parents that make me miss mine.

Adam Lambert - Yes, He can sing. Do I LOVE his voice? Yes and No. Would I buy his album? Probably (or I would search on itunes for the songs that sound like ballads) But what really has me torn is this - Adam Lambert is gay. He is gay as the day is long. There is something totally awesome to me that the next American Idol could be gay. It brings out this emotion inside me that I really can't explain except that it makes me excited and proud.

Call me a dork. Call me lame. Tell me I need to get a life --- but this season of American Idol -- has me "feeling things"